late night thoughts

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Assalamualaikum korang..

tengah otw nak tidur ke?  Aku sebenarnya perlu siapkan tutor sebenarnya.. tapi itulah. tak beberapa nak semangat 2-3 hari ni. Memandangkan adik-adik aku akan pulang ke asrama. Walaupun  diaorang tak pergi lagi. tapi aura kehilangan mereka kian terasa. Aku tahu bunyi macam mengada kan? Tapi tulah.. itulah yang aku rasa.


I don't know if you have this kind of thoughts and fear. Thought of one day your siblings will grow apart. To be honest, I'm really scared if that 'day' will come. I honestly don't want to loss them. I'm afraid of that because I've seen with my eyes. One day, they will marry someone. Have their own family. They will not be with me anymore.


I know, I kind of overthinking on this matter. I should pray something good will happen or none of this negative thoughts shouldn't overplay in my head. Tbh, I want to stop thinking.


I try to spend my time with them. But all they want to do, they want to watch drama all days. I'm trying to understand them.


They in their 'phase'.


A phase where they want to spent more times alone and be with friends. A phase where they want to grow up. I try to understand their high-school-phase.


I don't want they hate me when they grow up. Sometimes I feel like I want to give up. I don't want to be the eldest. I'm afraid because I'm trying so hard... I will make them left me. I really hate that. 😢


I just want to be a good sister.


I'm sorry for all this late night thoughts. I just need to say it all. OMG, my eyes will be 'sepet' tomorrow because I'm crying so hard right now. kadkljadkas. I got classsss yalls! 👀


goood night peeps!
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my study section

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Assalamualaikum gaisss!


neww update. I'm just sooo happy right now and bersyukur sangat. I've been waiting this moment like forever! Akhirnya I berjaya lengkapkan tempat untuk study I. Kerusi yang I order from like from 2 weeks ago dah sampai! Hehehe. I tak beli online. I tempah dekat kedai perabot yang mama selalu pergi.


My mom insist to buy office chair brand apex. I memula fikir nak beli yang murah je. I ingat nak beli yang murah je mula-mula sebab yelah I bukannya ada duit. Kalau kena sponsor I isssss okay. Tapi bila fikir kerusi murah karang runtuh pulak. Aku dah la gemuks. Hiks. Aku nak yang tahan lasak.


So yeah, end up my mom bayar 34/5. Aku bayar sikitttttttt je. ._.

Before this memang aku pakai plastic chair je. Macam ni. Sakit bontot dan paha aku. Gemuks kan. Kalau aku duduk kerusi dalam 20 minit aku dah rasa macam paha aku punya darah tak jalan. Sakit lah cerita dia.



Kadang-kadang aku jadi fed-up nak duduk lama-lama. Sebab tak selesa. 

Alhamdulillah now my tempat study makin cantik. Aku balut meja aku dengan sticker marble. Later I will update details.

Here is a picture for my new study section! I'm soooo in love. 🥺🥰




YAHH I'M ON MY WAT TO RE-DECORATE MY ROOM. Slowly but surely! I'm doing this because I'm having online class. Doakan seketul Aina kuat semangat dan berjaya dekan! thankss korang. Esok kelass!

papai!
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new semester [first sem for second year]

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Assalamualaikum,

Yas, as you guys can read 'new semester a.k.a first sem for second year a.k.a third semester'. Tomorrow my online class will start. Less than 12 hours. I can't believe my semester-covid-break will be over. I'm taking 20 credit hours for this sem. Hoping I will survive this semester with flying colours. Inshaa-Allah. 

This semester will be different.

No more running to class because I'm late because singgah gerai nasi lemak for some breakfast in the morning.

No more lepak at taman depan rumah sewa while berangan going to trips.

No more crying lepak at tasik for picnic or pizza date.

No more late night driving while singing on top of my lungs because layan senduness with my girls.

No more driving fast on highway on Sunday because I don't want to go back to rumah sewa on Saturday.

No McD dates, wayang date and a lot offfff things.

This semester will be last sem for being  Bureau of Multimedia for university association. I can't wait to be stress free from this. Huks.


Wow, a lot of things I will be miss. Pray for me. Pray for us.


Good newss!


This semester will be noooooo moreeee programming language I need to learn. I'M CRYING HARD BACK THEN BECAUSE OF PROGRAMMING LANGUAGE. I LOVE HIM, BUT I'M TIRED OF HIM. Yeah, I have this love-hate relationship with programming. Later I will explore more.


 Soooo yeah. good night. i'm sleepyyyy. zzzzzz.



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